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2010-07-24T00:57:00.000-07:00

I've moved here

I'm the worst storyteller

2010-07-21T23:06:00.000-07:00

For a few reasons. First of all, I can't verbally articulate for shit (which is why I like blogging/writing). It's really weird. If you compare stuff I'd say in real life to posts you'd find on here, you probably wouldn't make the connection that it's coming from the same person. In my opinion at least. I'm sure my poor public-speaking abilities have swayed my first impressions more towards "ice queen" and away from "zomg let's be friends!" I love it when it someone decides we're finally cool (for lack of a better word), so they don't feel so bad about tearing down my first impression. Yeah, I know I don't charm the pants off people right away. No, I can't help it if my default face is "bitch" (can't stand the term, but again, for lack of a better word).

The simpler explanation for being a sucky storyteller is the boring content. What can I say, drama-free's the way to be. But an epic blowout with your boyfriend would make for good conversation. Just once, Raf. We work things out pretty fast anyways.

Case in point:

"Well, I didn't mean to scratch his face that hard. Anyways, a few seconds after I left the room I heard the crash against the wall"

"He was fuming. The windshield just looked like a giant spiderweb"

"Swear to god I was gonna walk away from everything at that moment. I couldn't handle this shit anymore"

"It must've been 55 mph when he jumped out of the car. I didn't even notice until I saw him rolling in the rearview mirror"

And what about you Kristine?

"Um, we just didn't talk for a few days?"

Inception

2010-07-19T00:16:00.001-07:00

Watch it. All I'm gonna say.

For those that have seen it, I'm loving all the theories that people are coming up with - like this one (I don't really agree with it, but it's an interesting read nonetheless).

Lastly, the suits galore in this movie were a definite bonus.

It's Friday, I'm in...pain?

2010-07-17T00:17:00.000-07:00

I always feel like such a lame-o every time I'm the first person who decides to go home from kicking it ("yup-yup", haha). But by the time Friday night rolls along, I feel like I just can't hang anymore. I'm obviously doing something wrong because it's gotten exponentially worse in the past month or so. My body's achy 24/7, and I struggle to keep my energy at a functional level by midday. There's always the weekend to try to recuperate, but it's a continuous cycle because I'd rather fit as much activities as possible on my only free days than spend it wasting the morning/afternoon away in bed. So basically all I want to say is that I feel like shit. Woe is me.

Anonymous Formspring Lurker

2010-07-14T22:47:00.000-07:00

You kinda helped me realize my ability to indirectly piss someone off without even trying. So thank you. But try harder next time. Stay mad! ;)

Til Next Year

2010-07-06T00:04:00.001-07:00

I can't contain my excitement!

2010-07-03T17:32:00.000-07:00

If you don't already know, I've become hooked on fútbol thanks to the amazingness that is the World Cup. La Furia Roja edged out Paraguay to make it into the semifinals, so that calls for spamming my own blog with some GIFs!

Team España - some Torres & Ramos love

Hasn't been playing up to par since he's not 100% yet, but I still got faith. I mean look at this guy.

Piqué

San Iker has the best GIFs, I love this guy. Well deserved "Man of the Match" today.

Throwing in some Kaká for good measure

And Ronaldo too I guess

As for y'all that don't like this post:

Foodie/fatty post?

2010-07-03T00:31:00.000-07:00

It's 12:32am, and I'm tired as fuhh. For the third time this week, I ate to the point of unbuttoning-of-the-pants. Despite feeling like shit from all this excessive food consumption (and lack of gym time), it's been damn worth it. I mean, a mini Babybel and a cup of coffee in the morning will only suffice for so long. Black coffee, 3 vanilla creamers, half a Splenda, add a little hot water to dilute. Everyday. I suppress myself so much during the workweek that these binges are bound to happen. There's also a part of me that just wants to see how far I can take it in terms of eating and gaining weight. Probably over-analyzing here but when people can't seem to think of something else to say to me besides "You're so small/tiny!" (like, EVER), I want to eat just to spite the world. Underlying body issues? Whatever, it's probably just tonight's beer talking.

Speaking of which, I don't know what took me so long to get hooked on beer. Imagine what that would've done to me at 198, my god. I've always been the wino of the group - cabernets, pinot grigios and rieslings FTW - but now I feel like I have some catching up to do start working my way up to "beer connoisseur" status. I owe it all to a trip to Yardhouse one fateful night and this:

Before trying this, I hated beer. Afterwards, I saw the light. Simple as that. Sidenote: my mom fronted me about drinking beer by myself in my room. She saw the empty cans in the recycling...lol...

As for what I've consumed the past 3 days (with Raf's help):

The Mission at Mission Beach

Papas Loco with scrambled eggs. Quite possibly one of THE best plates of breakfast I've had in my life. Rosemary potatoes, grilled jalapeños, black beans, cheese, avocado, and sour cream.

Desayuno Burrito. Large tortilla filled with potatoes, eggs, cheese, beans, scallions, and chipotle cream.

Chocolat in Hillcrest

Ginger mango sake2me & a glass of Riesling.

Gelato. Forgot the name of this behemoth of a dessert but it had at least milk chocolate, dark chocolate and hazelnut.

Strawberries and pastry cream crepe.

Wa Dining OKAN on Convoy

Marinated Tuna and Avocado Spring Roll.

Lightly Roasted Bonito Sashimi

Deep fried tofu with tempura sauce

Sand borer "Kisu" Fish Tempura

Roasted Duck with Green Onion

Rice Ball in Broth (Salmon)

I'm still recovering from fair food from last weekend to be honest...

2010-06-24T21:08:00.000-07:00

Loving this right now

Drool

2010-06-22T01:04:00.001-07:00

Make it stop

2010-06-21T21:22:00.001-07:00

"Hey, so when are you & Raf finally going to...

2010-06-20T21:34:00.000-07:00

...you know."

I get that a lot. Especially now that a few of my friends my age are engaged or really starting to get serious with their significant other. Why am I getting bombarded with all these marriage questions already? In all honesty, I find it really absurd.

A few days ago, a friend of mine posted an article presenting a case against marriage from Newsweek's "Marriage Reconsidered". Without even getting to the article, I think it's pretty telling about folks in our generation that whenever I mention not buying into the idea of marriage, I personally get a lot of "I was just talking about this same exact thing to my friend the other day" or something along those lines. I felt that the article struck a nerve with me because it is relevant & something that's being talked about. And if I need to explain myself one more time when someone tells me "why not get married now?" I might need to smack someone.

In regards to marriage, I just don't think humans are meant to be monogamous. Not saying it can't be done though. Despite how I feel about marriage at the moment, I haven't lost faith in love. But with that being said, I don't feel like love is enough. By itself, I don't think it conquers all either.

/wompwomp

//this post feels unfinished, might add more later

Another sane solution from the GOP

2010-06-15T23:28:00.000-07:00

GOP Congressional candidate Tom Mullins on putting landmines on the U.S.-Mexico border. And he doesn't sound like he's joking:

"We talk about a border fence and really what we get down to is its very difficult to have a fence and have that work. But we have some low-cost, low-tech solutions. And I know it sounds crazy, but we have -- we used to have land mines. I know it sounds like a crazy thing. But if we wanted to stop -- if we, have an attack on the United States, a nuclear attack, and we find that they carried the nuclear weapon and the people, the people who harmed us came across the border and we say, 'We have got to secure the border,' we could put land mines along the border.

I know it sounds crazy.

We could put up signs in 23 different languages, if necessary. And we could put up some barbed wire and say, 'We are securing the border. If you want to cross the border, you cross legally. You cross through the areas where we have our border patrol agents, where we have the checkpoints, and so you follow the law.'"

Captain America

2010-06-14T21:53:00.001-07:00

Carlos Bocanegra, 31, defender and U.S. captain from Alta Loma, California, playing in his second World Cup.

If he didn’t play soccer: It’d be pretty cool to teach high school history. My favorite period is the Roman times. Just real rugged and manly men. You know, ripping meat apart with their teeth.

This guy...haha. More from Interview Magazine

If you've ever heard me complaining about growing out my eyebrows...

2010-06-10T23:58:00.000-07:00

Throwback Thursday - Bad Eyebrows edition

Also filed under:

#freshmanyear #besties #MILK(&Raffy)

I'm Intrigued...

2010-06-10T22:21:00.000-07:00

From Wikipedia:

Secular Humanism is a secular philosophy that espouses reason, ethics, and justice, and specifically rejects supernatural and religious dogma as the basis of morality and decision-making. Secular Humanism is a life stance that focuses on the way human beings can lead good, happy and functional lives.

Tenets:

*Need to test beliefs – A conviction that dogmas, ideologies and traditions, whether religious, political or social, must be weighed and tested by each individual and not simply accepted on faith.
*Reason, evidence, scientific method – A commitment to the use of critical reason, factual evidence and scientific methods of inquiry, rather than faith, in seeking solutions to human problems and answers to important human questions.
*Fulfillment, growth, creativity – A primary concern with fulfillment, growth and creativity for both the individual and humankind in general.
*Search for truth – A constant search for objective truth, with the understanding that new knowledge and experience constantly alter our imperfect perception of it.
*This life – A concern for this life and a commitment to making it meaningful through better understanding of ourselves, our history, our intellectual and artistic achievements, and the outlooks of those who differ from us.
*Ethics – A search for viable individual, social and political principles of ethical conduct, judging them on their ability to enhance human well-being and individual responsibility.
*Building a better world – A conviction that with reason, an open exchange of ideas, good will, and tolerance, progress can be made in building a better world for ourselves and our children.

Notable people: Richard Dawkins, Roger Ebert, Albert Einstein, Jon Stewart, Jeremy Bentham (Oh hey John Locke), Kurt Vonnegut, John Lennon

Looks like I have more ideas for summer reading...

Current faves

2010-06-06T00:56:00.000-07:00

LOOKBOOK.nu: "I THINK IM A LITTLE BIT, A LITTLE BIT IN LOVE WITH YOU." by Andy T.: "Queens Wardrobe Shorts, River Island Jacket"

[If I was a doppelganger for Zooey, I would be guaranteed cute too]

LOOKBOOK.nu: "PINK MOON" by Philippa Colliass: "Denim Jacket, Playsuit, Waist-belt, Vintage Shoes. My Favourite At the Moment."

[HAIR!!]

LOOKBOOK.nu: "sunny with a chance of pale" by Leah Huebner: "Highwaist Chinos from Salvation Army, Vintage Shades from Antiqued, Striped Shirt from Salvation Army, Leather Overthe Shoulder Bag from Antiqued"

[Simplicity done right]

LOOKBOOK.nu: "Take me out...." by Stefany A: "Primark Jacket, H&M Boots"

[The sunglasses make this whole ensemble IMO]

On a fashion side-note, I think rompers and I just aren't meant to be. I've yet to find one that doesn't make me feel like I'm back in Kindergarten - the height doesn't help either /bummer

Popular trends I just can't get behind: Hippie headbands. Double denim. Fringe. The middle part(!).

Come as you are...on the DL?

2010-06-04T00:03:00.001-07:00

I shared this video on Facebook a few days ago, but I didn't really get a chance to put my 2 cents in. After watching the ad, I'm sorta hoping that this is only the first of a series because it just fell flat in my opinion. So is he going to tell his dad? How will his dad respond? Is he going to bring his boyfriend next time? Which one is he in the picture? As is, I feel like this commercial doesn't have much of a point. I like that it's putting the issue out there & that it's realistic, but I'm not feeling the execution because it doesn't come off as supportive as I had hoped.

I wouldn't put it past McDonald's execs to have been all "hey let's make an ad that'll appeal to the gay market because that's what people do nowadays and everyone will commend us". It reminds me of Urban Outfitters initially pulling their "I Support Same Sex Marriage" tees off their racks & online store, citing it got "too much bad press". All while carrying tons of pro-Obama merchandise too. But what about stuff like -

It must've caught everyone by surprise to find out their favorite retailer that catered to liberals/hipsters/the pseudo-bohemian lifestyle was actually run by a Conservative who has backed anti-gay legislation by supporting guys like Rick Santorum (this Santorum fellow is also notorious for his views on Intelligent Design...don't even get me started).

Does the company's public image of being open and understanding really reflect its core? I'm not 100%. Prove me wrong, Mickey D's.

Highlight of Game 1

2010-06-03T21:51:00.000-07:00

One of those days

2010-06-01T22:20:00.000-07:00

I will secretly judge you if you:

_park in handicapped spaces because you're lazy. Amount of time is not an issue.

_can't tidy up after yourself in a dressing room.

_use one of these words in my presence*: whore, skank, slut, cunt, chink, fob, fag.

_don't tip.

_make a domestic violence joke. Or even worse, try to justify it i.e. "No woman deserves to get hit but ___".

_seriously use "I'm too pretty"/"I'm too hot" for an excuse. For anything. I can't even believe I had to put this on here. Girl...

*Particular use of the word is considered, but for the most part - it's not gonna fly with me

/ifeelbetteralready

I am not my hair

2010-05-28T00:33:00.000-07:00

But I'd be lying if I didn't say I miss it sometimes :/

For moral support - Hyori Lee looking all cute & shiz

One more, just for kicks

2010-05-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

Monday, May 05, 2003

my GREAT-day streak fOllOwed me tOday! i have to admit i was a little tired going to school today, i had a hard time sleeping last night. iunno, maybe i juss didn't want the day to end yesterday cuz it was soo fun! anyways, today started off really well when i got my math test back in 1st period - 98%! i really wasn't expecting it, so that was a pleasant surprise. the rest of the day was pretty chill, then 6th period came. everyone was getting excited for tryouts and stuff. ever since yesterday i've been really hyper so when liza started teaching us the hip-hop routine for the tryouts i was all e.x.c.i.t.e.d...lol and i was practicing the routine raf taught me. i'm getting pretty damn good at it i admit - ha juss joshing, but yeah i was all hyper today it was fUN. we got a lot of people to show up at tryouts, mostly incoming freshmen. i hope this weeks runs smoothly, don't wanna be staying after school till 6:00 for nothing. so tryouts ended, and my baby came to visit me! i wasn't really sure if i'd see him today, so that was another cool surprise. we did our little routine thing for jamey and marvin, jamey said it was cute :) yeah i still feel all amateur cuz ur so pRO raf! u know u are...! love ya babe...so now here i am, doing my homework, its the end of the day. as long as my mood stays like this for the week, i'm all good. but my decision...now i'm actually leaning toward doing only ONE semester of guard...but...i still dunno. argh! need to make my decision soon...late guys

/the tyPInG wasn't as bad as last time. So much progress in less than a month!

2010-05-27T23:25:00.000-07:00

Throwback Thursday - Senior Breakfast edition

It's finally here :(

2010-05-18T22:33:00.000-07:00

Time to wait for the finale!

All these years of being mind-fucked has taken its toll...

but I'm sad it's coming to an end.

I still need Whoopi to explain the difference between "rape" & "rape-rape"

2010-05-15T23:16:00.000-07:00

...I'm still SMH over that one.

Anyways, I can always rely on ONTD for some fun reads about unnecessary celebrity bullshit, but every once in a while I come across something that's a bit more thought-provoking than the latest candids of Kim Kardashian promoting her latest weight-loss product. It reminded me of this article about rape culture I read a while back - I'm sharing it now since I don't remember if I ever linked it from my blog before this.

Case in point.

And now - Sexual Assault Prevention Tips Guaranteed to Work! (Via Feminally)

1. Don't put drugs in people's drinks in order to control their behavior.

2. When you see someone walking by themselves, leave them alone!

3. If you pull over to help someone with car problems, remember not to assault them!

4. NEVER open an unlocked door or window uninvited.

5. If you are in an elevator and someone else gets in, DON'T ASSAULT THEM!

6. Remember, people go to laundry to do their laundry, do not attempt to molest someone who is alone in a laundry room.

7. USE THE BUDDY SYSTEM! If you are not able to stop yourself from assaulting people, ask a friend to stay with you while you are in public.

8. Always be honest with people! Don't pretend to be a caring friend in order to gain the trust of someone you want to assault. Consider telling them you plan to assault them. If you don't communicate your intentions, the other person may take that as a sign that you do not plan to rape them.

9. Don't forget: you can't have sex with someone unless they are awake!

10. Carry a whistle! If you are worried you might assault someone "on accident" you can hand it to the person you are with, so they can blow it if you do.

And, ALWAYS REMEMBER: if you didn't ask permission and then respect the answer the first time, you are committing a crime- no matter how "into it" others appear to be.

Um...what

2010-05-06T23:15:00.000-07:00

I don't know whether to be amazed or appalled. Conflicted...

The more I think about it, the more pissed off I get

2010-04-28T20:27:00.000-07:00

Lol of the day

2010-04-25T21:04:00.000-07:00

It's always hilarious coming across songs that you listened when you were younger & not clever enough to know what the song was really about. Or just weren't paying enough attention. The ones that when you hear them now it makes you go oh...OH! Now you can relate hahaha.

/edit: Need to add this one because it makes me laugh everytime

Reminds of this time in elementary school when Idelle & Nikki were so upset that they didn't pass the auditions for the talent show. Thinking back, I would have loved to see the look on the parents' faces when they finished performing "Waterfalls". Second graders singing about drug dealing & HIV...the PTA would've had a field day.

Still the shit after all these years though. R.I.P. Left Eye, can't believe it's already been 8 years to the day.

When I pulled my hamstring, I went to the misogynist

2010-04-20T23:29:00.000-07:00

Now that I've thought about it - and seen this - Glee would make a pretty good horror movie.

I'm still mad that they didn't do the full song for the episode. Needs more J.Groff/Jesse.

Fresh cappuccino with a mocha twist

2010-04-19T20:21:00.000-07:00

I've decided I'm going to put myself on a budget. I've been doing well with putting $ into my savings every payday but my God - this coffee habit is getting the best of me. Going into Lent, I hoped that I'd be able to kick this; now, I just feel like it's worse than ever. I'm curbing my spending habits on food to accommodate my Starbucks/Peet's/Bad Ass Coffee fix, but I know I can do better. It's just hard when this is all I think about everyday -

Caramel macchiato. I like mine iced grande with nonfat milk, upside down, light on the ice. Sometimes with sugar-free vanilla. However, after I started going to the Peet's near my workplace, my Starbucks drinks started to taste watered down. I'm still a fan of their hazelnut & pumpkin spice latte though *drool*

At Peet's I'll usually go for the dark chocolate mocha freddo. Their coffee seems a little bolder & deep roasted than Starbucks, but it might take a while to get used to if you're not a regular. If you don't like stronger coffee you probably won't like it off the bat.

Ice blended black forest at Bad Ass Coffee. Obviously I don't have a picture of it, but you KNOW it's gonna be good. I gotta admit all of their drinks just seem like variations of the same thing because the kona coffee taste overpowers the other flavors, but I love kona coffee so no complaints here. Plus their blended drinks are very finely blended to a really smooth & creamy texture *more drooling*

I wish I could say that I frequent independent coffee shops as well but I just have to make do with what's nearby, plus there's the fact that I always leave my house in the morning at the last minute possible. Anyways, to cut down spending (& unnecessary calories) I bought these today:

I hope they don't disappoint.

Bieber Fever

2010-04-14T20:47:00.000-07:00

I've had this song on replay for a while. And I wish I could make it stop :'(

Also posting the new Maxwell vid to even things out.

Sometimes

2010-04-11T21:17:00.000-07:00

I can't help but wonder if I'd be as strong as I claim to be if this relationship were to end right here, right now. Would I be able to take the advice that I so willingly dish out to others? To be honest I doubt my credibility when it comes to dating and all that relevant shit because I don't know what it feels like to be alone, to not have that safety cushion of knowing the voice on the other side of the line will always answer. In a weird way I almost feel disadvantaged because I've never been forced to toughen my skin after a really bad heartbreak or being fucked over. It'd be naïve of me to think that I will never experience moments like that, I mean the ones that shake you to the core, so for me the longer I wait for the inevitable, the more I'm afraid of it & the accompanying hurt. I'm not saying I'm waiting for a breakup, just something. I'm not sure what.

I like to think of myself as an independent person, a woman fully capable of making her own. But I'd be lying to myself if I said my relationship hasn't had an effect on almost every decision I've made since December 19, 2002. My decisions weren't always in favor of it, but I can at least say the consideration of it has always been there.

I'm not really sure why I even bother with hypotheticals. We're not in some weird funk. Or fighting right now. As a matter of fact, it's great. Awesome. Whenever people ask me how we're doing, I always go with my default answer: "Oh you know, same ol' stuff". Unless you and I engage on some intense one-on-one conversation, I'm not going to tell you how he and I are really doing because privacy is important to me. But I will share one thing with you guys - when things are going well, when you feel that love is operating at its fullest potential...it's just indescribable. It's no second-guessing, euphoric, feel it to the tips of your toes good. Might as well throw in some unicorns and rainbows while I'm at it lol. But really though, in love is where I find strength, inspiration & happiness. And sometimes I just don't want to think about what would become of me if it were to be stripped away.

Sweater Obsessed

2010-04-11T19:13:00.000-07:00

"Add to cart" for all these please.

"The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd...

2010-04-08T20:48:00.000-07:00

The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before."

-Albert Einstein

An intellectual fellow, indeed.

Balrogs, Krakens, & Nazgûl, Oh My

2010-04-05T21:53:00.000-07:00

While a good amount of my friends were living up the end of their spring breaks this past weekend, I decided to lay low, aka catch a movie & watch 2/3 of my favorite trilogy ever. No complaints here, especially when you add some cheap wine, fatty cupcakes, yummy leftovers, and a Rawfiki for some good company. It didn't even take that much effort for me to convince him that missing out on the Lakers game for some kickass fellowship bromance wouldn't be so bad.

Not only did I get my LOTR fix, but I ended up dragging Raf & Jay to go see "Clash of the Titans". I'm pretty sure I was laughing throughout the whole thing, but if you're going to remake a camp classic, I guess it's not totally unexpected. I'm still not convinced that Sam Worthington can act, but he's nice to look at I guess. Mads Mikkelsen was pretty badass and was the best part of the movie for me (he played Le Chiffre in "Casino Royale"). As ridiculous as the original is, it'll always have a soft spot in my heart since I've seen it so many times. And I wish they utilized this little guy more in the revamped version -

If you're in need for some lolz & cheesy goodness, I would save the $12 something and catch the original COTT on youtube. I can't get enough of movies with some epic movie creatures. If I had Netflix, I would almost put this in my queue:

2010-04-01T22:41:00.000-07:00

I could watch her all day.

A Cringeworthy Walk Down Memory Lane

2010-03-30T23:48:00.000-07:00

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

hey HEY first pOst! damn it kinda tOOk me a while tO get all Of this tOgether. there's the practices, then the reviewing fOr apec (24'7 fOr realz!), hOmewOrk, american idOl Of cOurse, phOne, and just wanting tO take a nap fOr Once! ha well at least i gOt this thing dOne - yeah. u dOn't understand hOw relieved i'll be Once this week is Over. i still gOtta make up a vOcab test in apec frOM friday and a pOlar graph quiz. and Our last guard shOw On sunday! it's at cOx if any Of yOu wanna gO, and but u knOw u can prObably pass it up unless u really wanna spend $15 that is. then nO mOre rEHEARSALS! i'll actually have time fOr a l.i.f.e. O mAN i'm excited. i think i'll start wOrking On my scrapbOOk fOr guard this year next week tOO. damn if Only u can see my james lOgan pix...haha

...And that was my first Xanga post. And no, I'm not posting links to it either.

Rawfiki Bonus:

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

yo yo yo...waddup yall...wells the past weeks been pretty tight....yup yup ..yeah know...just turned 16 on the the 13th yall...yeah practice was tight that day wasnt too hard...yeah then later that day i went out with oliver and roy and met up with erwin, krystle , and raffy at tapioca heaven..........haha good times good times...."LISTEN LISTEN"..haha yeah... i didnt know they give free boba to you hmmm....yeah then the next day the 14th i had a bbq...it was tiight how a lot of my friends went...and yes my lovely girlfriend Kristine...hey babe i love you.....yeah the bbq was tight..you know breaked a lil chilled a lil but it was fun the last ppl left around 11 .......damn i had a lot to clean up and shit....i feel like having another bbq ...hahaha sike maybe some other year......lets see then on friday i went to a bonfire with oliver and the youth group and met up with OLMC ...yeah i got to see kristine...yup we had a great time...we chilled on the beach and watched the sunset...it was really really nice...then on the weekend i went to the mall with lu ray mark jordan and oliver...bought some new kicks and yeah we saw bad boys 2 ..yall have to check that movie out its tiight...uhm as for the past few days its just been the same ...bboying on monday..practice on tues. and wed. ...well right now im at olivers house and everone is playing street vol.2 im out peace

PEACE.....LOVE.......AND SOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUL!! i love you!!!

I love me a good mashup.

2010-03-28T21:45:00.000-07:00

I know some people who absolutely hate mashups but for the most part I LOVE them. Mashups, random mixtapes, remixes, fusions of different genres, I eat up anything that fucks with the familiar. I'm not as forgiving with covers that are too faithful to the original version though, not that you can totally discern a cover from a remix sometimes. That probably doesn't make any sense but I'm just gonna run with it.

I'm a little late with this one (it came out around January), but I've been listening to it lately so I thought I'd share.

“Enter The Magical Mystery Chambers” by Wu Tang Vs The Beatles, produced by Tom Caruana featuring Wu-Tang acapella tracks mixed with samples from Beatles songs.

I'm sure a lot of people think messing with Wu-Tang's music is sacrilegious. And of course, you can say the same thing about die-hard Beatles fans . I myself must admit that I love The Beatles' songs but I prefer when they're performed by other artists /unpopular opinion. But what I like about this mix is that the sampling is done very subtly, which works well for me. I don't know if you can compare this to the execution of The Grey Album but for some cruising-in-the-beautiful-SD music? This will do just fine.

Download the .rar file here or you can hit me up for it

And for a little taste of it -

If I ever decided to switch to Mac...

2010-03-27T13:12:00.001-07:00

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2010-03-25T20:26:00.000-07:00

If you haven't noticed already, I've updated my blog roll so check it out. Trying to revive this whole blog thing is easier when I have fellow bloggers to draw inspiration from.

Throwback Thursday

2010-03-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

I saw this TT theme on Tumblr somewhere, & now I'm going to steal it.

In honor of Airbands season.

A music post.

2010-03-24T22:10:00.000-07:00

I just uploaded about 400 songs to my computer thanks to my brother. NIOCE.

Why I bring this up: I can't stand putting my whole iTunes on shuffle because I need some consistency when listening to music. Unfortunately, that means missing out on a lot of good stuff that's right in front of me - if it doesn't come to mind, it just won't get played. I'm always looking for new stuff to add, only to be listened to a few times then forgotten...they're like the never-worn, still-have-tags pieces of clothing just sitting in my closet. What a waste.

But don't you guys have those moments when you listen to a song and you can automatically think of the perfect corresponding moment from your day? Or it takes to you somewhere very specific? Happened to me quite a lot today so I thought I'd share.

That guy that your friend won't shut up about but just needs to drop already. I will confront the dude for you my friend if that means getting all fierce up in his face Janet-style with accompanying dance moves. I'll even be content with a background dancer role. God I wish life was like a music video sometimes.

I hate this song. Heard it on the radio this morning. Every time I hear it, I'm standing on the bleachers inside the gym with 2 of my friends during a middle school dance, overlooking everyone else awkwardly slow dancing. OR I'm sitting on the floor in my room when I lived in the condo, crying over the guy I liked because he told me he was moving to the East Coast. Shoot me now.

I heard this song at Starbucks and it automatically made my heart all warm and gushy. It also makes me want to fly? It's just awesome.

Good morning at work...

and sometimes by the end of the day. Hah.

Yeezy thanks you for your time.

Cute couples make me gag.

2010-03-22T20:25:00.000-07:00

Okay, just kidding. But even after all of the cutesy/cheesy/twee things I've experienced in my own relationship for the past 7 years, there's always those other couples induce the same reaction from me: a little bit rolling my eyes, this weird "agh" sound that I think is a mix of "ughh" and "aww!", followed by a jealous "hmph", all while my mouth is in this weird smile. I guess it's true that love - even that of others - makes you do weird things.

Cute couple example (one of my favorite Hollywood couples):

*sigh/barf*

Inspired by this ONTD post.

"When I Think About Love"

2010-03-22T19:15:00.000-07:00

Always down for some new R-Les stuff, even just a snippet or two.

Too cute.

2010-03-18T23:35:00.001-07:00

Lovers
Originally uploaded by Graça das Graças

I get it.

2010-03-17T23:05:00.000-07:00

I'm small. Petite. Miniature. Lilliputian. However you want to put it. Whatever people have to say about me doesn't phase me these days but it gets old when people feel like they have the authority to make comments on my body type (and most of the time it's not in a complimentary manner) just because they feel like I don't have any body image issues. People won't dare tell plus-size women to watch what they eat but think it's okay to tell someone naturally skinny to "go eat a sandwich" and compare their body to that of a 12-year old boy. Yes, I eat. No, I don't have a problem. No, you don't have to question me about why I go to the gym because it's not about weight. It's like that pet peeve of mine when people glamorize that "real women have curves" bullshit. Whatever happened to celebrating all shapes and sizes?

Ugh whatever, I'm getting cheese fries.

/rant

Throwback of the day

2010-03-13T01:43:00.001-08:00

Summer 2005. Peep the Edwards shirt. Me about five shades darker. But still as happy.

My current obsessions

2010-03-10T23:21:00.001-08:00

I need to be stopped.

Quick Update

2010-03-09T22:52:00.000-08:00

I've been working fulltime a little over 6 months now, and sometimes when I think about all the hours of sleep I lost during that time I die a little bit inside...

Okay, so not really. But let me tell you, it's amazing how much more you're willing to push yourself & stay on your toes when you're getting paid to do it. Shouldn't be that way but maybe I should have pretended I was getting paid to take my microbiology and ochem finals. If only I took that approach in regards to blogging. I really do miss writing though, out of all things school-related.

The funny thing about being at work all the time now is that before, I was so excited to get out into the "real world", like I was supposed to undergo this transformation and would magically become enlightened in...I don't know what. Something. That turned out to be not true for me. Now, with the change in climate across California campuses thanks to ignorant people being ignorant, budget cuts, etc., I feel like I'm missing out on some real issues that affect almost every 20-something I know. I just feel very out of the loop not experiencing anything firsthand.

Nevertheless, I am very thankful to have graduated and thankful for my job, one reason being that I can finally save a good amount of money. I don't do it to the degree that I'd like to, but anything to be one step closer to being on my own... You'd think that as you get older your parents would reason with you more and you wouldn't argue as much. That's false too.

I freaking love the Olympics

2010-02-18T19:24:00.000-08:00

And this guy.

Best ONTD comments about this dude:

-"this kid was made from the sperm of christ. nobody else can make physics their bitch like he can. it's the only explanation."

-"I love it when amazing athletes live up to the hype and perform incredibly when it counts the most."

-"WHY WATCH AMERICAN IDOL WHEN YOU CAN WATCH SHAUN WHITE SHAKE HANDS WITH GOD FROM SO MUCH AIR??"

And since 2002 <3

I love how I can stay at home and do nothing but watch tv and not feel so uncool for 2 weeks.

If you know me...

2010-02-14T02:12:00.000-08:00

...this is my kind of valentine.

formspring.me - A little bit of blog history

2010-02-04T20:34:00.001-08:00

Where did "capinator" come from and what does it mean?

In high school, there were 2 Kristine's in colorguard, so I would be called Cap (short for my last name) to differentiate us. The name pretty much stuck ever since & so now about half of my friends call me Cap, including my old roomies. This next part is pretty stupid now that I think about it but anyways, one day at 198 during second year, either Brent or Lance wanted to get these lapinators for our laptops (http://www.lapinator.com/) and asked if we all wanted to get them too. The rest is a little fuzzy but somehow "Cap" & "lapinator" had a lovechild & the name of my blog was born. I've been using that name for everything ever since.

Ask me anything

2010-02-03T20:40:00.000-08:00

Not really sure what she's up to nowadays, but I wouldn't mind raiding her closet.

A little more classic and simple than her past hippie chic looks. I dig it.

What just happened??

2010-02-02T23:25:00.001-08:00

My head hurts.

Thanks for keeping it classy, Coco

2010-01-22T23:38:00.000-08:00

"And all I ask is one thing, and I’m asking this particularly of young people that watch: please do not be cynical. I hate cynicism. For the record, it’s my least favorite quality. It doesn’t lead anywhere. Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. But if you work really hard and you’re kind, amazing things will happen. I'm telling you, amazing things will happen.."

LOL Insanity Wolf

2010-01-17T22:13:00.000-08:00

But who knows, I still might make one someday.

On Repeat

2010-01-09T14:57:00.000-08:00

For the jazz-meets-hip-hop lovers

You likey? Well here ya go. (I suggest you check out more of okayplayer.com for more good ish)

formspring.me

2010-01-04T23:09:00.001-08:00

Here's your chance... Ask me anything! http://formspring.me/capinator

#freekanye

2010-01-04T20:31:00.000-08:00

I can only hope & pray that one day Not So Small Talk will achieve levels of brilliance & literary prowess parallel to those of Mr. West's blog.

The CAPS LOCK, the blatant disregard for proper punctuation, the "LOL!!" finale, I could go on.

Okay, so I didn't have a real reason to post this except I had nothing to do at work today, so it was just me & my Ipod for a while. Truth is I forgot how great "The College Dropout" is; I have such a love-hate relationship with 'Ye. I just hope he brings as many lulz & WTF moments in 2010 as last year.

I'm going to end this post with one of my favorite Kanye quotes: "WHY WON'T YOU LET ME BE GREAT!!!"

"40 Things Every Woman Must Know About Men, Love, Sex and Relationships"

2010-01-03T21:08:00.000-08:00

I'm not really someone to search for relationship/dating advice (especially on teh interwebs, that's what friends are for), but I do like to read advice columns for fun, even stupid stuff like Cosmo & their "tips" that they recycle.

Seriously though, "your va-jay-jay"?

Sometimes I'll even give my own take on these matters. But recently, I stumbled across an article that I thought had a good amount of truth to it, although there were a few points I had to question myself. I'm only going to post up a few that caught my eye but here's the entire article if you feel compelled to read on.

Most women learn about men, love, sex and relationships the hard way. They walk down the highly traveled, worn out path of emotional scars, broken hearts, abuse, confusion, anger and sleepless nights. When it comes to learning the hard way, you can get to know a great deal about men, love, sex and relationships, but most women who have traveled that path will tell you, “The price is too high and the consequences and lingering effects are way to painful!” Smart women understand this irrefutable truth.

1. There are two types of males: Dishonorable males and honorable men. Don’t date or marry until you know how to tell the difference between the two! The woman in the mirror will graciously thank you.

3. You are not a car; if you meet a man who wants to test drive your physical body, emotions and feelings, point him to a car dealership, bid him adieu and don’t look back!

8. Women who hold grudges, seek vengeance, cling to bitterness and are unwilling to forgive, unwittingly break their own hearts!

12. Self-love: if you don’t have it, pull yourself off the market. Make no mistake about it, if you don’t love yourself, NO MAN can ever love you… no matter how great a man he is.

17. You are not a man! Therefore, you will never be: a role model for men, a father figure, a man’s mentor or a man’s coach. If a man has lacked proper male leadership in his life, kindly send him on his way. Know for a certainty; he is not prepared for the responsibilities that come with love, sex, relationship and marriage.

19. Don’t ever delude yourself! Your beauty, fine body, sexual prowess, cooking skills, femininity and vibrant personality will never be enough to change a man, NEVER!

21. Angry, bitter, hostile, combative, unforgiving single women, become: angry, bitter, hostile and combative, unforgiving wives.

24. When a man is trying to find himself, kindly bid him adieu… PERMANENTLY! He can find you, but can’t find himself? He shouldn’t be looking for love… he should be searching for the map to Mastering Manhood!

29. All men ARE NOT dogs! Don’t believe, repeat or perpetuate that rampant lie! You will hamper your ability to see and discern the good men who cross your path!

32. Never allow emotionally embittered women to influence you concerning the male gender. If you do, their hatred and unforgiveness will become yours. Soon you will find yourself suspicious, indignant and angry at all men.

40. Nothing is more beautiful, captivating, attractive and sensual than a woman with a gentle and peaceable spirit!

P.S. There is a male version of the article as well, and I found it interesting how much more succinct and to-the-point the advice was. Figures.

Chillin' out maxin' relaxin' all cool

2010-01-03T20:44:00.000-08:00

If you just want to listen to something super chill & easy on the ears, this might be for you.

Another OkayRoots production with The Apple Juice Kid. This time he brings along his band The Remix Project for their brand new album Mixtape. They did live instrumental interpretations of your favorite hip-hop tracks along with some of their favorites. The artwork was done by Dallas’ own Objektiv One so be looking out for much more from this dope designer as he is now illRoots Familia. Some brand new Freebass 808 (Apple Juice Kid x Suede) is on the way as their first single ‘Rewind’ featuring Jovi Rockwell of Major Lazer will be dropping soon.

Tracklist:
1.Tribe Called Quest- Electric Relaxation
2. Snoop Dogg- Drop It Like It’s Hot
3. Scarface- On My Block
4. Nore- Nothin
5. Jay Z- I Just Wanna Luv U
6. Punjabi MC- Beware of the Boys
7. Soho- Hot Music
8. Ol’ Dirty Bastard- Got your Money
9. Talib Kweli- Get By
10. Outkast- Spottieottiedopalicious
11. Big Boi- The Way You Move
12. Ol Dirty Bastard- Shimmy Shimmy Ya
13. Black Sheep- Choice is Yours
14. Digable Planets- Rebirth of Slick
15. The Foreign Exchange- Sincere
16. Destiny’s Child- Girl
17. Elton John- Benny and the Jets
18. Outkast- Prototype
19. Missy Elliot- Get your Freak On
20. Missy Elliot- Work it
21. Amerie- One Thing
22. Beyonce- Crazy in Love

Download here!

Live it off the wall

2010-01-02T02:00:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone! I wish I didn't end the year sounding so bitter but at least I can leave that negativity behind now & start with a clean slate. Definitely looking forward to what 2010 will bring - the good, the bad, the fugly - I'm up for a challenge.

Probably should've done this earlier, but here's an end of the year survey just for kicks.

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before? Lots of firsts (& some "only-once's") this year. Graduation, landed my first full-time job, lots of "growing up" stuff. Oh yeah, and I've never had to completely overhaul a 13-page original fictional story the night before it was due (successfully too!) 2010 has some big shoes to fill.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't have any specific resolutions except these, and they still sound good to me.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? No.

4. Did anyone close to you die? Yes.

5. What countries did you visit? Didn't travel in 2009. Boo.

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009? Patience, faith that things will work themselves out.

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory and why? June 13 - BioSci Commencement. October 24 - day of bad news.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Again, graduating and job. Getting my grown-woman on.

9. What was your biggest failure? It's still difficult for me to open up and express my feelings sometimes. I need to fix that since it affects important relationships, especially with my parents.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Nothing noteworthy.

11. What was the best thing you bought? My MyTouch! For as long as I've had a cell phone, I've never bought an upgraded phone until this year. I could always rely on Raf for his hand-me-downs, even though I'd always lose them :/ And not gonna lie I really like my Marc by Marc Jacobs bag.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? My brother. He graduated this year too and started college at UCI. He's one person I don't worry about too much because he has a good head on his shoulders.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Cheaters. 2009 was their year I swear, all over the news as well as things I'd hear about.

14. Where did most of your money go? Now a good portion of it goes to my savings, but at 198 I swear it all went to food. It's hard to resist AYCE Korean BBQ, Le Dip, Yardhouse Happy Hour, Yen Sushi, & all of our other favorite spots in The Vine (I miss it :/) I also have a bad online shopping habit.

15. What did you really, really, really get excited about? SF weekend earlier in the year. Starting my new job. Glee & the American Idol finale with Kradam lol.

16. What song will always remind you of 2009? If you know me then you won't be surprised if I say anything by Lady Gaga.

17. Compared to this time last year are you:
Happier? About the same but for different reasons.
Thinner? A little bit, didn't indulge as much this holiday season.
Richer? Yup.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of? Save money, blog, work out, make an effort to keep in touch with friends. BALANCE.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Judge, complain, worry about things that are out of my hands anyway.

20. How did you spend Christmas? With my family & watched Avatar in 3D.

21. How will you be spending new years? Spent it with Raf & his family at JV's dad's house.

22. Did you fall in love in 2009? Daily.

23. How many one-night stands? No thanks.

24. What was your favorite TV program? LOST, Glee, SYTYCD, Chuck, most of Discovery Channel.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? No

26. What was the best book you read? I enjoyed "Animal Farm" & "House of Leaves". I also really liked this book of short stories by Raymond Carver.

27. What was your biggest musical discovery? No artists in particular but I usually rely on Jay to send me some dope stuff, & he doesn't disappoint with his findings.

28. What did you want and you got? A job. It's a plus that I actually like it.

29. What did you want and not get? Respect from a few people. To be able to manage my time better.

30. What was your favorite film of this year? UP, Star Trek, District 9. I have more on my "to watch" list.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old did you turn? Turned 23, had a little shindig at Confidential.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Not feeling so restricted at times (sometimes due to other people, other times myself).

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009? Classy & cute.

34. What kept you sane? I could always turn to Raf or Jay.

35. Which celebrity did you fancy the most? They come and go but it's always Johnny<3>

36. What political issue stirred you the most? Oh man. The ongoing debate on marriage equality, women's rights. See here for examples.

37. Who did you miss? Now that I'm back at home I miss the good times in Irvine.

38. Who was the best new person you met? I like all the people I met this year. I won't stroke any egos by naming names lol.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009: You can never tell those close to your heart "I love you" too much.

40. Quote or Song Lyric that sums up your year: “So tonight gotta leave that nine to five upon the shelf and just enjoy yourself, groove, let the madness in the music get to you,
life ain't so bad at all.”

Just a word of advice

2009-12-30T10:22:00.001-08:00

Case of the Holiday Blues

2009-12-28T23:20:00.000-08:00

I've been in a holiday funk, and I can't seem to get out of it. Reasons not necessarily unknown but not entirely concrete either. Relatively speaking I think I've got it pretty good & I'm at a good place in my life right now - however it's only inevitable during the holidays to also think about what you've been missing out on as you reflect on everything that's transpired this past year & the things you're thankful for.

I'm usually good at focusing on the brighter side of things, but I will allow myself to emo-it-out just once in this post. It's gotta come out sometime. With that being said:

-I feel like I let people step over me too much. I've always accepted the fact that sometimes I'm "too nice" but I'm going to grow a bigger backbone ffs. Not going to blame anyone but myself for this one though.

-Lately I haven't been able to do my own thing or call my own shots without someone acting as an obstacle to my independence.

-Experienced losing someone close to me really for the first time this year.

-People I thought I could always rely on & would have my back... some of them proved me wrong. I already have a tough time trusting people. Bummer.

-To put it in the most pathetic terms possible, sometimes it's like feeling lonely without actually being alone.

This could be due to a lot of things. Leaving the college life behind and finally putting it behind me. Work schedule, less free time, including not being on vacation anymore while everyone else is. Nagging family members that make it seem like it's never enough. Just realizing your relationships with some "friends" aren't what they used to be.

But enough of that! Definitely not going to feel sorry for myself, especially going into the New Year. This year has had its shortcomings but like I said, there are many things to be thankful for. I just needed to get some things off my chest to release this negativity and am now leaving it behind with 2009. I'm ready for 2010.

Oh yeah, and as some of you know I'm pretty good at hiding my emotions. So don't be fooled :]

Happy 7 Years Rawfreaky

2009-12-19T23:59:00.000-08:00

We did it!

A random thoughts post

2009-12-08T22:20:00.001-08:00

-It's tough for me to believe that this year is almost over. Every year people always say "this year's gone by so fast!" but lemme tell you, that's the damn truth for 2009 - for me anyways. About a year ago I was studying for my physiology and dev & cell bio finals, getting ready to go to Vegas with 198 & co. and now I'm going into my fourth month working fulltime. I feel like that was eons ago, then there's the mountain of stuff that happened in between...

-No "what I've learned this past year" post from me. But what I will say is that this year was the closest I've been to experiencing the full spectrum of human emotion. The wave of feelings that I've dealt with these past few months alone was so...cornucopian? Am I even using that right? Doesn't really help that I'm not even sure about what I'm trying to say.

-I've felt this surge of whining and "life sucks" attitudes from a good amount of people for a while now. Maybe that's what I get from following all these people on twitter. Or it could just be a reflection of the state of our country right now (raised tuition, unemployment, etc.). But wow, you gotta shake that negativity off peeps. That's one thing I've had on replay in my head. I'm sure there's good things aplenty you can smile about during your day to offset some petty annoyance that you're just going to forget about the next day. Don't wait for a drastic event remind you of how much you need to enjoy what you have because it can all be gone in a flicker.

-When I was 16 or 17 I would constantly overthink about how different my life would be five years ahead. Here I am, almost 23, still doing the same thing. All of those shoulda, coulda, woulda's. The paths not taken, the ones you wish were available to you, deciding on your next move. I wonder if people still think this way when they're like 90 or if it never really goes away.

-Despite all that, I am in a very happy state. I really am.

2009-11-02T19:44:00.000-08:00

"To Those I Love and To Those Who Love Me"

When I am gone, release me, let me go. You have so many things to see and do. You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears. Be happy that we had so many years.

I gave you my love. You can only guess how much you gave me in happiness. I thank you for the love you each have shown, but now it's time I traveled alone.

So grieve a while for me, if grieve you must, then let your grief be comforted by trust. It's only a while that we must part. So bless the memories within your heart.

I won't be far away, for life goes on. So if you need me, call and I will hear. Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near and if you listen with your heart, you'll hear all of my love around you, soft and clear.

And then, when you must come this way alone, I'll greet you with a smile and "Welcome Home"

Worth a try

2009-10-18T19:18:00.000-07:00

I have no idea what the end product of this post is going to be like. Erwin had pointed out how lackluster the efforts of our little blogging community have been lately (the peeps on the right side of my page if you didn't know already), so I thought I might as well wing it and post something. You could say most of my favorite posts have been class-lecture or douche-encounter inspired, but obviously I can't rely on that for inspiration no mo'. I feel like I rag on religion too much as well, and although I have plenty more to say, I'd like to still believe there's a little place in heaven for me someday O:-)

I prefer to flesh out my posts if possible, so I'll usually only blog about something after it's had time to simmer in my brain and I have enough shit to say. I like my posts meaty. But with the combination of being addicted to Twitter and being as impatient as I am, I tend to just blurt out the thoughts in my head as they come now.

There's no stupid comment by some ignoramus in class I can build a post off of anymore. I see the same people everyday at work and for the most part they are all really nice - I'm not even exaggerating. So what now? I mean jeez I'm only turning 23 soon, I don't want to think life starts to get less interesting and shit starts to get really real from this point. The next closest milestones won't be happening anytime soon, as long as life goes according to plan:

-Moving out: Maybe in the next year? Or two? I like not having to pay for much while living with my 'rents but this could definitely happen in the near future.

-Marriage: Meh, I'm not really in a hurry. Some people say not much will change, so why not? I say not much will change, so why in a rush?

-Kids: I'd like to remain kid-less for a while after getting married. I actually questioned myself at times if I really wanted kids at all. I think I was just scared at what kind of mother I would turn out to be, but then I snapped out of it. I mean how cool with it be to have a mom with such infinite wisdom? (I keed, you never know how well sarcasm comes across on teh interwebs).

But what of the meantime?

Til the next post...whenever that is...

SMH at you, Mike Seaver

2009-09-25T00:14:00.000-07:00

This ongoing science vs. religion debate seriously grinds my gears. For the tl;dw crowd, here's what Mr. Cameron & company have planned for the 150th anniversary of Darwin's "Origin of Species":

An entire generation has been (and is being) brainwashed by atheistic evolution, and it's radically changing the culture of our nation.

In an effort to combat this, we produced a special 280-page full color cover edition of Origin of Species, which contains a 50-page introduction [aka crock of shit]. 50,000 copies of the "balanced" version of Darwin's "Origin of Species" will be given out on November 19th (a few days before the 150th anniversary of the book).

Get the book and you can see the opposing and "correct view".

I wonder if he would still approve if schools were to teach ALL alternatives: creationist/ID views of Hinduism, Buddhism, Shinto, Islam, Sikhism...hmmmm. What if agnostic/atheist folks wrote their own 50-page introduction to the Bible and distributed thousands of those? They have the liberty to do so as well, right?

I posted this video on twitter & facebook before, but it's worth a repost:

Hand in My Pocket

2009-09-07T13:37:00.000-07:00

I'm broke but I'm happy

I'm poor but I'm kind

I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah

I'm high but I'm grounded

I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed

I'm lost but I'm hopeful, baby

And what it all comes down to

Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine

I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober

I'm young and I'm underpaid

I'm tired but I'm working, yeah

I care but I'm restless

I'm here but I'm really gone

I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to

Is that everything's gonna be quite alright

I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is flicking a cigarette

And what it all comes down to

Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet

I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is giving the peace sign

I'm free but I'm focused

I'm green but I'm wise

I'm hard but I'm friendly baby

I'm sad but I'm laughing

I'm brave but I'm chickenshit

I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to

Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet

I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is playing the piano

And what it all comes down to my friends

Is that everything's just fine fine fine

I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

"But he's a nice guy!"

2009-08-31T20:57:00.000-07:00

Now don't get me wrong, I love me some nice guys. There's nothing wrong with being a nice guy. They make great friends (I know, something nice guys hate hearing. But it's true!). And if I was single, I would probably take the nice guy next door any day over the quintessential bad boy - that is, if I had to choose and had no option of the perfect mix between the two, cuz y'all know me & my thing with balance.

Although some bad boys make it hard for a girl to choose...

However, I CAN'T stand it when dudes pull the "nice guy" card as if it cancels out other shortcomings, or even worse, when other people do it for that person. Being a nice guy does not automatically exempt you from other douche tendencies. There are many everyday examples of this curious dichotomy of likable & loser.

See:

_The holier-than-thou guy whose preachiness is off the charts. You never feel like you're having a conversation "with" him because it always seems like he's talking "at" you about some shiet he thinks you could learn from. But he's a nice guy!

_The dude whose "Do-I-Sound-Like-An-Asshole-Right-Now?" awareness meter seems to be broken 24/7. One too many snarky comments here and there. But I'm sure he never means it, because he's a nice guy!

_Not the ego-inflated jerk, but rather the one whose self-deprecation is just too much to deal with. We all do it, but you know the guy that never stops? But he's a nice guy!

_The bigot. Self-explanatory. But he's a nice guy??

Take home message of the day: I still have love for nice guys! Just remember that it isn't some disguise or excuse to engage in some dickish behaviors.

Now go forth, and sin no more.

Setting the bar

2009-08-19T20:48:00.000-07:00

So now that things are a little different for me now in terms of lifestyle, free time, etc., I thought I should set myself some new goals. These are ongoing, and I don't want to set a deadline for any of them, but I need some new stuff to look forward to and work towards these days.

1. Work on time management. Don't try to cram too much stuff in one day.

2. Specifically make some time for the gym. And if possible, reading.

3. To compensate lack of gym time -> eat healthier.

4. Getting a decent night of sleep each day is a must.

5. Get a new damn phone!

6. Apply for a credit card/build credit (I know, I'm late on that)

7. Save, save, save $$$. Avoid splurging. Forreal.

8. When the time is right (?), move out of the house

...

573. Buy myself a Marc Jacobs bag :/

Another Reason Why I'm Scared of the Ocean

2009-08-16T18:36:00.000-07:00

Okay, maybe not so much scared because these aren't like the humongo open-ocean creatures that haunt me in my dreams sometimes (forreal), but GROSS. These giant marine isopods are in the same Class as crabs, lobsters & shrimp - Malacostraca - but this seriously makes me think twice about eating any of those things ever again. I mean if you really think about it, and I've actually discussed this in one of my classes, lobsters are like "cockroaches of the sea"...

Yummy.

Appetizing.

Doesn't roly poly bisque sound just as good?

It Had to Be Said

2009-08-08T19:31:00.000-07:00

My favorite Twilight-related thing ever, although that may not be saying much.

"In this remixed narrative Edward Cullen from the Twilight Series meets Buffy the Vampire Slayer at Sunnydale High. It's an example of transformative storytelling serving as a critique of Edward's character and generally creepy behavior. Through Buffy's eyes some of the more patriarchal gender roles and sexist Hollywood tropes embedded in the Twilight saga are exposed in hilarious ways."

Hello, Goodbye

2009-07-31T23:08:00.000-07:00

So it's official - in less than 2 weeks, I start the next chapter in my life as a fulltime working woman.

Hello to more moola & all that comes with it, including more responsibility. I think I did pretty well in college managing my finances, but now it's time to get serious. I will do my best to try & refrain from splurging on unnecessary luxuries, even though I'll have some leeway since I won't have too much to pay for while I'm living at home; I need to keep my focus on establishing my own place instead of designer purses or more clothes that I won't have room for in my closet anyways. Although I do need to revamp my daily wardrobe to business casual attire. Fun.

Then there's the hard part: goodbye. To lazy summer days. Spontaneous weekday adventures. Sleeping in. Real vacations. Not doing anything because I feel like it. Wasting any free time that I have. Gah I just I don't get burned out too fast. Wish me luck.

It's funny how I've just been dying to land this job for the last couple weeks and now that I finally did it, I focus not on what I'll be gaining but rather what I'll have to give up. It's that damned if you do, damned if you don't feeling. Haha but really, I'm not complaining. Time to conquer my next mountain...

Oh and if you're wondering where I'll commence my journey into the "real world", it's here.

Leap of faith

2009-07-18T00:06:00.000-07:00

After a long, drawn-out conversation I had with a friend yesterday, we eventually touched on some important subjects that I didn't think would catch me so off-guard. It's like those conversations that you have in middle school where you nonchalantly tell your friends exactly how the rest of your life is going to (or at least, how you think it's supposed to) play out. Without really thinking about how monumental these events are in your life, you make that checklist in your head - college, graduation, starting your career, marriage, starting a family, etc.. Suddenly cut to 10 years later and when it's time to really start the discussion, lo and behold, you really don't know what to say. I've been having way too many of these moments lately haha:

Anyways, I guess we're just at that point in our lives where we actually have to confront all those things we said we would do when we were younger and probably a little braver as well; I mean what 12-year old took into account financial situations or baggage from past experiences when determining their destination in life? I know nowadays you can't help but think about these obstacles, but that naive outlook - sometimes you just have to revert back to that to cut out the bullshit & see the big picture. I appreciate everything that I've learned from my experiences with people and in relationships and just the "real world", but man it would be nice to go back to not having a worry in a world for a day again.

A little after the conversation finished, there was one thought that stuck in my head after talking about a particular subject, but I think it applies to everything -

Can you ever be 100% sure of something if you've never known otherwise?

With some big decisions that folks our age have to make and without having as much experience as older folks, I just have a hard time taking that leap of faith sometimes and just trusting that a certain decision is the right one. It's like saying San Diego is the best city in the world and there's absolutely no other place you'd rather be, but you've never been past the county borders. As much as you love this city and despite having numerous examples lined up to back your case, can you ever really go from that 99% to 100% sure that SD is the place to be and never bother leaving it for the rest of your life because it's that good to you? I don't know...

Blegh

2009-07-12T02:17:00.001-07:00

This blog used to be so good. Okay, so I don't mean to toot my own horn, but I think it used to be good at least.

Someone inspire me. Piss me off. Surprise me. Criticize me. Motivate me. Advise me. Commit a social injustice against me. Tell me I'm wrong. Agree with me. Bitch me out. Praise me. Anything at this point.

"Friends forever, with you everywhere"

2009-07-06T11:53:00.000-07:00

So it's been almost a week since we've moved out of 198. It didn't really start to sink in until the last couple of days when I would wake up in my room & not be as excited because I had no roomies to say good morning/afternoon to. And there was the lack of awesome late night snacks that I had grown accustom to, like some moons over my hammy or mini tacos.

But like they say, good things don't last forever, and I feel pretty lucky to have been one of the 198 residents for 3 years. I don't know too many people that can say they lived with the same roommates in the same apartment for as long as we did. Anyways, to remember the happier times and since Mel posted her share of 198 pics, here are some of mine:

Move-in day during the summer

Derek's birthday at Roger's house 2nd year. G's.

My 21st bday. No group pic, but everyone helped pitch in & I had lots of fun, so thanks guys.

Brent Bash during 3rd year.

A 198 Christmas, 3rd year.

Happy 21st Lance!

Doin' Vegas, winter break of last year.

At my graduation <3

Moving out...

I'll keep this short, so I just want to say thanks to Mel, Lance, Brent, & Derek, and to everyone who's ever visited us the past 3 years to make my 198 experience the best that it could have been :]

Congrats c/o 2009!

2009-06-22T23:12:00.000-07:00

I'm a little late on this, but we did it class of '09! I know we have amazing journeys ahead for each of us.

Raffy & Roger @ the Henry Samueli School of Engineering Commencement. If I never changed my major I would have graduated with them :p

Although Jay's younger than me, I look up to him a lot. I know he'll do awesome things at UCI next year. And stick to your music!

Thank you to everyone who stopped by to say hey, even if it was just for a couple minutes <3

And of course, my #1 supporter for 6 1/2 years :]

Another Reason Why Pixar Rules

2009-06-19T14:27:00.000-07:00

For the whole article: Pixar grants girl's dying wish to see 'Up'

HUNTINGTON BEACH – Colby Curtin, a 10-year-old with a rare form of cancer, was staying alive for one thing – a movie.

From the minute Colby saw the previews to the Disney-Pixar movie Up, she was desperate to see it. Colby had been diagnosed with vascular cancer about three years ago, said her mother, Lisa Curtin, and at the beginning of this month it became apparent that she would die soon and was too ill to be moved to a theater to see the film.

After a family friend made frantic calls to Pixar to help grant Colby her dying wish, Pixar came to the rescue.

The company flew an employee with a DVD of Up, which is only in theaters, to the Curtins’ Huntington Beach home on June 10 for a private viewing of the movie.

The animated movie begins with scenes showing the evolution of a relationship between a husband and wife. After losing his wife in old age, the now grumpy man deals with his loss by attaching thousands of balloons to his house, flying into the sky, and going on an adventure with a little boy.

Colby died about seven hours after seeing the film :'(

...

Colby died with her mom and dad nearby at 9:20 p.m.

Among the Up memorabilia the employee gave Colby was an “adventure book” – a scrap book the main character’s wife used to chronicle her journeys.
“I’ll have to fill those adventures in for her,” Lisa Curtin said.

You go, Pixar. R.I.P. Colby <3

"What We Talk About When We Talk About Love"

2009-06-10T18:11:00.000-07:00

"You guys have been together eighteen months and you love each other. It shows all over you. You glow with it. But you both loved other people before you met each other. You've both been married before, just like us. And you probably loved other people before that too, even. Terri and I have been together five years, been married for four. And the terrible thing, the terrible thing is, but the good thing too, the saving grace, you might say, is that if something happened to one of us - excuse me for saying this - but if something happened to one of us tomorrow I think the other one, would grieve for a while, you know, but then the surviving party would go out and love again, have someone else soon enough. All this, all of this love we're talking about, it would just be a memory. Maybe not even a memory. Am I wrong? Am I way off base? Because I want you to set me straight if you think I'm wrong. I want to know. I mean, I don't know anything, and I'm the first one to admit it."

If you ever get the chance, I recommend checking out this short story by Raymond Carver. I like his work in general, and this was a pretty interesting read about love and relationships. Just wanted to share this excerpt that resonated with me.

Because it's my last finals week...without the finals part

2009-06-09T20:54:00.000-07:00

This weekend, I made sure to bring all of the necessary notes with me so that I could work on my last real assignment of my college career (I hesitate to say "undergraduate", I keep going back and forth with that idea in my head). But of course, I didn't get any sh*t done. I guess ~~I'll never learn~~ I never learned - I can say that now! Haha. Anyways, this blog has been pretty stagnant as of late, but I don't really want to blame it on lack of time or being too busy with finals/graduation/that biz. Honestly, I couldn't have asked for an easier quarter to ride out the rest of my time here at UCI.

I guess I haven't blogged in a while because I honestly don't have anything to say. As I approach the end of a big chapter in my life, I wish I'd have real insightful things to say, but actually I'm feeling a little numb right now. I think all of the anxiety/relief/happiness/sadness just cancels each other out and I'm left just feeling a little blank. I don't want to put too much out there right now until I can actually articulate my thoughts. I don't want to look back to read this and go "I freaking graduated, and that's all I had to say?" Hah.

Even though I'm sort of in this "whatever" mode at the moment, one thing's for sure; everytime I just think about a job search and just trying to get my foot out there during these times, my face starts to get hot and I almost have a panic attack out of nowhere. Not very characteristic of me. But I can't keep myself from freaking out. I don't want to end up one of those grads that search high and low, 12+ hours a day looking for a job, only to realize 6 months have passed so then you resort to going back to working at the mall or Starbucks. Not that I have anything against honest people making a living that way, but I didn't suffer through Organic Chemistry and Micriobiology for nothing damnit. Sucks to be so worrisome when I'm supposed to be celebrating. But that's life, just gotta deal.

Maybe I should just take the advice of every adult that's talked to me about graduation - "Maybe you should take a break first. This is probably the last real vacation you'll have" :/

I'm going to miss Wednesday night TV

2009-05-14T23:14:00.001-07:00

Now for some Aerosmith to tie in two of my favorite shows right now:

The studio version of Adam Lambert's cover of Aerosmith's "Cryin'" is a million times better than the performance. Not gonna lie, I've had this on repeat all day. Who knew when I made that Adam Lambert post back during Top 13 week I'd be this obsessed at this point. Maybe I'm biased (fck yeah Sundevils) but man, I love this guy.

[Damnit it won't let me embed the video]

And for some vintage Aerosmith, check out Josh Holloway aka Sawyer from LOST around the 3:25 mark. James has definitely come a long way haha. And this season's finale...my mind was blown. Damn you writers for pulling on my heart strings ;(

Just in case

2009-05-12T00:14:00.000-07:00

Note to self/unsure graduates/anxious twenty-somethings/probably you:

Don't be so emo. You live in America. Meaning freedom of speech. Endless possibilities. You probably have never felt what it's really like to go hungry. There's a roof over your head. People in the world wake up not knowing if they will survive the end of the day. What struggle? Really? Don't take things for granted. Life is good. You'll be fine.

-Capinator

Happy Mother's Day!

2009-05-10T00:21:00.000-07:00

For all you mother lovers out there

Paparazzi

2009-04-24T21:51:00.000-07:00

I may not "get" her at all sometimes, or almost all the time actually, but I love this chick. And her crazy hats & geisha lips phase lately. Help!

P.S. it's a shame I can't get into the "I Poke Her Face" song, maybe the instrumental but yeah...

Happy 100th!

2009-04-22T00:36:00.000-07:00

Between last-quarter-ever anxieties, putting in more hours at work, the laziness-inducing weather, and basically just figuring out what I'm going to do with my life, I haven't had a chance lately to just sit down and think things out for a minute. There's also the fact that I've been resorting to Twitter to post random, useless thoughts that don't warrant their own post, but I digress. I saw that this would be my 100th post on this site (whoopee!) and I didn't have any grand idea deserving of this spot, so I guess it would just be best to look back on some of my favorite posts.

Unlike looking back at my old Xanga, I actually enjoy going back and reading through some of my old posts here haha. From politics and religion to relationships and social commentary in general, I definitely solidified some of my views on - or am on my way to figuring out - these topics during the past 100 posts. I remember back in high school I was pretty indif

ferent to a lot of things, but thanks to my experiences in college, life, and just plain ol' growing up, I've been able to open my eyes arguably for the better.

Dating/Relationships:

- Soulmates, Shmoulmates: One of my usual relationship wanks

- The Sexy Post: My guide on how to be "Top Tier" lol

- Wifey Skills According to Him:I'm not a fan of lists like this but it was fun to make it anyways

Feminism & Sexism:

- Sex Sells, Female Chauvinism, Etc.: Thoughts about beauty standards, where to draw the line b/w sexy and trashy

- Give Me a Break: Double standards FTL

Religion/Philosophy:

- Science & Religion: Contradictory or Compatible?: I was compelled to basically write an essay after taking my philosophy of biology class

- Searching for Answers: A summary of where I stand right now in regards to religion in my life and how it's changed

- They Say You Want a Revolution: Thoughts on these 2 subjects after one of our late night 198 talks

Politics/Civil Rights:

- My Turn on Prop 8 Thoughts: An issue I was pretty passionate about this past year

- Obama takes a step forward for women's rights and the abortion issue: Another touchy subject, I just wanted to get some information out there for people to think about

Thanks to all (probably around 3 haha) of my readers and people who have commented on my stuff, I really enjoy reading your commentary, criticisms and compliments! Here's to the next 100 posts *crosses fingers*

When the lights go down in the City...

2009-04-06T22:34:00.000-07:00

Click on the picture for my Multiply album

Just what I needed to start my final quarter at UCI. Although I'm pretty exhausted, at the same time I feel rejuvenated after a weekend getaway where I could just enjoy quality time with some good folks.

More interesting posts to come up, I pinky swear.

Why I'm going to the gym everyday this week

2009-03-25T02:51:00.001-07:00

So far, spring break can be summed up in the following:

Korean BBQ in honor of Team Korea vs. Team Japan

A full on BBQ the next day, just because

What we consider a "late night snack"

Including egged-up hot dogs I guess?

All because I live with these people. I nominate them as the next contenders on "Man vs. Food"

You go girl

2009-03-21T23:52:00.000-07:00

Portia De Rossi's Prop 8 PSA. And that's all I want to say about that right now.

I have high hopes for this movie

2009-03-17T21:21:00.000-07:00

The first official poster:

And just to take you back to your childhood:

Carjacked

2009-03-12T20:57:00.000-07:00

About 2 weeks ago, my brother's car (aka my old Prelude that I used to drive) was stolen while he was at school. I guess he was running late and the main parking lot was full, so he ended up parking on sophomore hill. Biiig mistake. When he went to go home during his off-roll period, it was long gone. I assumed it was already in pieces somewhere in TJ by the end of that night.

Then last Sunday, the police called my house after they had chased down this car that was speeding on the 15. Speeding in a stolen car -> never overestimate the smarts of car thieves. Anyways, the car ended up hitting an electrical box in Mira Mesa, and the 2 people in the car started to run only to be caught by the police. When my dad and Jay arrived after getting the call, they began cleaning out what was inside of the car:

Checkbooks. Beamer keys. DVDs. Games. Sunglasses. Blankets. Tools. Wine glasses and china. Important documents. Cell phones. Tons of stuff that was stolen. Also throw in a flamethrower and a tank of gas in there...

But although we got the car back, the thieves did a piss-poor job trying to disguise it. The license plate was gone, the front bumper was painted over, parts of the trunk were missing, the radio was taken out, the filter in the engine was missing, and the tires and rims were changed. But worst of all, there were these 2 fugly black streaks on the hood. A total Monet - from far away it looks aight, but up close...

Notice the color of the rims on both sides...

The inside after most of it was already cleaned out

Under the front bumper

At least we got it back in one piece :/

Twitter

2009-03-10T01:07:00.001-07:00

I got one too, check the widget -->

That is all.

I'll probably still be updating my facebook more though, so this is a little pointless...

Slow Jamming the News

2009-03-07T14:23:00.000-08:00

I haven't seen an episode of Jimmy Fallon's talk show or decided whether I think he'll be a success or a massive fail. And I don't know how I feel about The Roots as his house band. But this was pretty hilarious:

"She added an amendment" - Best part. LOL.

This...is American Idol

2009-03-06T01:05:00.000-08:00

Now that we know the Top 13 contestants of Season 8, I think I will be going the root-for-your-hometown route and support my boy Adam Lambert.

His Idol profile claims L.A. as his hometown but don't be fooled - he is a PQ boy at heart and a Deer Canyon/Mesa Verde/Mt. Carmel graduate. Yayuh.

So he can be a little over the top for my taste when it comes to the shrills and vocal gymnastics, but he has a damn impressive range. He's one of those people whose style you either love or loathe. I think if he learns how to tone it down for the show, he has a pretty good chance of making it far into the competition. Vocally speaking, very Axl Rose to me. Maybe a little Robert Plant at times and David Bowie, vibe-wise. Some people say Freddie Mercury, but it's hard for me to compare someone to who I regard as probably the greatest rock vocalist of all time.

Anyways, did I mention he's fab as hell? One thing's for sure, he's got the glam rock thing down. Idol needs a little edge these days.

Team Anoop Doog too.

Maybe I'm naive

2009-03-04T18:22:00.000-08:00

My relative facebook status for the day, since I don't have a twitter:

Love thy neighbor. Not Christian neighbors only. Not just the straight couple down the street. Not members of the majority down the hall. Love thy neighbor.

I was feeling rather hopeful today...

"Is that Robert Downey Jr. in Watchmen?"

2009-02-26T00:41:00.000-08:00

Lo and behold, the trifecta of pure awesomeness:

Mmk so Robert Downey Jr. is a little reaching for me in this case, but I swear Javier Bardem and Jeffrey Dean Morgan - separated at birth.

I know jacksh*t about Watchmen, but you will find me at the theatres opening weekend. And strictly for RDJ/JB/JDM picture balancing purposes:

Give me a break

2009-02-22T03:12:00.000-08:00

I never really had a chance to discuss my thoughts on Slut! after I read it a while back but if there was one thing that I took away from it, it would be to refrain from labeling someone a "slut" or "whore" based on how they carry themselves or what you may have heard. If I hear you say something really idiotic, will I maybe judge you as being a little empty-headed? Perhaps. If you make some smart-ass comment and see you belittle people for the hell of it, will I think you might be a bitch? I'll admit, sometimes. But as for calling someone a slut based on an outfit or two, I think I'm over that.

I'm just a little sick and tired of these damn double standards. Yes, we all know that ladies don't need to show a lot of skin to be considered sexy. But does that mean it's okay to punish any woman that chooses to do so anyways? I just think it's hilarious how one minute a man will tell a female, "You know, you'll probably warrant some unwanted attention with that outfit, you might want to reconsider" then follow up with an oh-so-ironic "but damn by the way you look really sexy like that". So what is it society, do you want your women pure or do you want them sexy? You say you want both, but if a woman isn't sexy, you will pick her looks apart because apparently she's busted and unwanted. If a woman isn't pure, it's somehow okay to crucify her because we've been brought up to have no sympathy towards those "bad" girls.

The worst part of this situation for me is how often the blame is brought upon the female if something happens to her. If a female catches a man's eye and he decides to disrespect her, some people will say she had it coming. Riiight. Just like how women in domestic abuse cases must have done something to instigate her own beating? Or how some rape victims had it coming to them because of their established reputation? Yes, there are some girls out there who put themselves out there with the sole purpose of garnering stares and catcalls who spoil it for the rest of us. But if a man decides to disrespect a woman, I don't think the main problem is the woman's choice of how she decided to portray her body - the problem is how that man thinks harassing a female is permissible, for whatever reason. The problem is how women are also quick to punish each other for being sexual.

Just think about it.

Headache

2009-02-22T00:53:00.000-08:00

For some reason or another, I have a hard time just letting some things play out. I wish I didn't overanalyze and play out idealistic situations in my head because I'm only setting things up for reality to fall short of them. It's difficult for me to trust that it will all work out in the end because I hate not knowing what's going to happen. It's hard for me not having all the answers right now.

Funny thing is that I know in the end it won't matter to me - regardless of the means, in the end I'll be happy. I've always told myself those minor issues don't really matter, it's the big picture that counts. So why do I care so much? When did not having control over situations bother me to this extent? Agh.

Pandora Radio

2009-02-18T00:00:00.001-08:00

I wouldn't know anything about this website if my brother hadn't told me, so kudos to Jay.

Even though I'm not particularly savvy regarding technology and tons of people might know about this already, I thought this was cool so I thought I'd share. Usually when I'm at work, I settle for listening to some San Diego radio station online because 1) I don't have iTunes on my computer at work, and 2) I just can't browse through Myspace and Youtube endlessly to play music that I like. But even doing the online radio thing I endure way more commercial breaks than I'd like, so it's so much nicer to be able customize your own radio station depending on your mood. Or even 10 stations at a time if you'd like.

For Pandora Radio all you need to do to create a station is type in an artist, song, or composer and it will generate your own station by selecting music with similar qualities. For example, type in "Queen" and you get:

-Electric rock instrumentation

-A subtle use of paired vocal harmony

-Repetitive melodic phrasing

-Extensive vamping

-Paired vocal harmony

Or if you're feeling some "Cool Kids" it comes up songs that have these characteristics:

-East Coast rap influences

-Electronica influences

-A knack for catchy hooks

-Sparse beats

-Use of call-and-response vocals

If you like the songs that the station generates, you can give it a thumbs up and it'll be repeated sometime in the future. You can also give a song a thumbs down if you don't care for it too much, then it won't be played on that station anymore.

I think the Pandora application is available for the iPhone and is available for downloading to Windows as well. Happy listening!

Not so small talk.

Tumblr

I'm the worst storyteller

Inception

It's Friday, I'm in...pain?

Anonymous Formspring Lurker

Til Next Year

I can't contain my excitement!

Foodie/fatty post?

*Drool*

Make it stop

"Hey, so when are you & Raf finally going to...

Another sane solution from the GOP

Captain America

If you've ever heard me complaining about growing out my eyebrows...

I'm Intrigued...

Current faves

Come as you are...on the DL?

Highlight of Game 1

One of those days

I am not my hair

One more, just for kicks

It's finally here :(

I still need Whoopi to explain the difference between "rape" & "rape-rape"

Um...what

The more I think about it, the more pissed off I get

Lol of the day

When I pulled my hamstring, I went to the misogynist

Fresh cappuccino with a mocha twist

Bieber Fever

Sometimes

Sweater Obsessed

"The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd...

Balrogs, Krakens, & Nazgûl, Oh My

A Cringeworthy Walk Down Memory Lane

I love me a good mashup.

If I ever decided to switch to Mac...

------->

Throwback Thursday

A music post.

Cute couples make me gag.

"When I Think About Love"

Too cute.

I get it.

Throwback of the day

My current obsessions

Quick Update

I freaking love the Olympics

If you know me...

formspring.me - A little bit of blog history

What just happened??

Thanks for keeping it classy, Coco

LOL Insanity Wolf

On Repeat

formspring.me

#freekanye

"40 Things Every Woman Must Know About Men, Love, Sex and Relationships"

Chillin' out maxin' relaxin' all cool

Live it off the wall

Just a word of advice

Case of the Holiday Blues

Happy 7 Years Rawfreaky

A random thoughts post

Worth a try

SMH at you, Mike Seaver

Hand in My Pocket

"But he's a nice guy!"

Setting the bar

Another Reason Why I'm Scared of the Ocean

It Had to Be Said

Hello, Goodbye

Leap of faith

Blegh

"Friends forever, with you everywhere"

Congrats c/o 2009!

Another Reason Why Pixar Rules

"What We Talk About When We Talk About Love"

Because it's my last finals week...without the finals part

I'm going to miss Wednesday night TV

Just in case

Drool