I'm the worst storyteller

For a few reasons. First of all, I can't verbally articulate for shit (which is why I like blogging/writing). It's really weird. If you compare stuff I'd say in real life to posts you'd find on here, you probably wouldn't make the connection that it's coming from the same person. In my opinion at least. I'm sure my poor public-speaking abilities have swayed my first impressions more towards "ice queen" and away from "zomg let's be friends!" I love it when it someone decides we're finally cool (for lack of a better word), so they don't feel so bad about tearing down my first impression. Yeah, I know I don't charm the pants off people right away. No, I can't help it if my default face is "bitch" (can't stand the term, but again, for lack of a better word).

The simpler explanation for being a sucky storyteller is the boring content. What can I say, drama-free's the way to be. But an epic blowout with your boyfriend would make for good conversation. Just once, Raf. We work things out pretty fast anyways.

Case in point:

"Well, I didn't mean to scratch his face that hard. Anyways, a few seconds after I left the room I heard the crash against the wall"

"He was fuming. The windshield just looked like a giant spiderweb"

"Swear to god I was gonna walk away from everything at that moment. I couldn't handle this shit anymore"

"It must've been 55 mph when he jumped out of the car. I didn't even notice until I saw him rolling in the rearview mirror"

And what about you Kristine?

"Um, we just didn't talk for a few days?"

A Cringeworthy Walk Down Memory Lane

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

hey HEY first pOst! damn it kinda tOOk me a while tO get all Of this tOgether. there's the practices, then the reviewing fOr apec (24'7 fOr realz!), hOmewOrk, american idOl Of cOurse, phOne, and just wanting tO take a nap fOr Once! ha well at least i gOt this thing dOne - yeah. u dOn't understand hOw relieved i'll be Once this week is Over. i still gOtta make up a vOcab test in apec frOM friday and a pOlar graph quiz. and Our last guard shOw On sunday! it's at cOx if any Of yOu wanna gO, and but u knOw u can prObably pass it up unless u really wanna spend $15 that is. then nO mOre rEHEARSALS! i'll actually have time fOr a l.i.f.e. O mAN i'm excited. i think i'll start wOrking On my scrapbOOk fOr guard this year next week tOO. damn if Only u can see my james lOgan pix...haha

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...And that was my first Xanga post. And no, I'm not posting links to it either.

Rawfiki Bonus:

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

yo yo yo...waddup yall...wells the past weeks been pretty tight....yup yup ..yeah know...just turned 16 on the the 13th yall...yeah practice was tight that day wasnt too hard...yeah then later that day i went out with oliver and roy and met up with erwin, krystle , and raffy at tapioca heaven..........haha good times good times...."LISTEN LISTEN"..haha yeah... i didnt know they give free boba to you hmmm....yeah then the next day the 14th i had a bbq...it was tiight how a lot of my friends went...and yes my lovely girlfriend Kristine...hey babe i love you.....yeah the bbq was tight..you know breaked a lil chilled a lil but it was fun the last ppl left around 11 .......damn i had a lot to clean up and shit....i feel like having another bbq ...hahaha sike maybe some other year......lets see then on friday i went to a bonfire with oliver and the youth group and met up with OLMC ...yeah i got to see kristine...yup we had a great time...we chilled on the beach and watched the sunset...it was really really nice...then on the weekend i went to the mall with lu ray mark jordan and oliver...bought some new kicks and yeah we saw bad boys 2 ..yall have to check that movie out its tiight...uhm as for the past few days its just been the same ...bboying on monday..practice on tues. and wed. ...well right now im at olivers house and everone is playing street vol.2 im out peace

PEACE.....LOVE.......AND SOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUL!! i love you!!!

Throwback of the day

Summer 2005. Peep the Edwards shirt. Me about five shades darker. But still as happy.

Happy 7 Years Rawfreaky

We did it!

Fellas, Answer Me This

So I was talking to one of my girl friends about guys that aren't afraid to use a little dinero to catch a girl's attention. Even though my friend consistently turns down his advances and makes it fully obvious that she's not into him, the offers keep coming - and I'm talking not just talking about the occasional dinner here and there, I mean gym memberships, theme park tickets, no joke.

But let's take the most simple and common example - you're at the bar and a guy offers to buy you a drink. If accepted, does the guy automatically think that the female is interested? It's hard for me to tell, since this is a pretty common occurrence in any given bar or club anyways. Since the very first time I've been offered, not once have I accepted, usually saying something just like "No thank you" or "It's cool, I've got it covered already" - I just don't want to lead the guy on at all even just a little bit and I've always thought that taking that drink would seem like I owe him something, even if it's just a 5 minute obligatory conversation. If I do sense that situation coming up, I'll usually go out of my way to escape it somehow just to avoid the awkward exchange.

Then at other times, I just feel like "Eh fuck it, it's just a drink and nothing more...right?". Cuz I mean damn, if it's a free drink and just a way for a guy to tell you he thinks you're cute, why not? I've even worn my ring on the wrong finger (hence been asked if I'm married) but that doesn't function as much of a deterrent. I guess the dilemma here is whether or not accepting the offer when you already know there's no way this guy is getting with you is either a shady move or not a big deal at all. The point of this post for me is more for trying to understand a guy's POV for these situations rather than trying to justify scoring free drinks from random dudes, even if it will work in my favor haha. But really, I'm not trying to get Raf mad or anything, shit.

So boys - thoughts? I feel like I overthink things too much...