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I'm the worst storyteller

For a few reasons. First of all, I can't verbally articulate for shit (which is why I like blogging/writing). It's really weird. If you compare stuff I'd say in real life to posts you'd find on here, you probably wouldn't make the connection that it's coming from the same person. In my opinion at least. I'm sure my poor public-speaking abilities have swayed my first impressions more towards "ice queen" and away from "zomg let's be friends!" I love it when it someone decides we're finally cool (for lack of a better word), so they don't feel so bad about tearing down my first impression. Yeah, I know I don't charm the pants off people right away. No, I can't help it if my default face is "bitch" (can't stand the term, but again, for lack of a better word).

The simpler explanation for being a sucky storyteller is the boring content. What can I say, drama-free's the way to be. But an epic blowout with your boyfriend would make for good conversation. Just once, Raf. We work things out pretty fast anyways.

Case in point:

"Well, I didn't mean to scratch his face that hard. Anyways, a few seconds after I left the room I heard the crash against the wall"

"He was fuming. The windshield just looked like a giant spiderweb"

"Swear to god I was gonna walk away from everything at that moment. I couldn't handle this shit anymore"

"It must've been 55 mph when he jumped out of the car. I didn't even notice until I saw him rolling in the rearview mirror"

And what about you Kristine?

"Um, we just didn't talk for a few days?"

One more, just for kicks

Monday, May 05, 2003

my GREAT-day streak fOllOwed me tOday! i have to admit i was a little tired going to school today, i had a hard time sleeping last night. iunno, maybe i juss didn't want the day to end yesterday cuz it was soo fun! anyways, today started off really well when i got my math test back in 1st period - 98%! i really wasn't expecting it, so that was a pleasant surprise. the rest of the day was pretty chill, then 6th period came. everyone was getting excited for tryouts and stuff. ever since yesterday i've been really hyper so when liza started teaching us the hip-hop routine for the tryouts i was all e.x.c.i.t.e.d...lol and i was practicing the routine raf taught me. i'm getting pretty damn good at it i admit - ha juss joshing, but yeah i was all hyper today it was fUN. we got a lot of people to show up at tryouts, mostly incoming freshmen. i hope this weeks runs smoothly, don't wanna be staying after school till 6:00 for nothing. so tryouts ended, and my baby came to visit me! i wasn't really sure if i'd see him today, so that was another cool surprise. we did our little routine thing for jamey and marvin, jamey said it was cute :) yeah i still feel all amateur cuz ur so pRO raf! u know u are...! love ya babe...so now here i am, doing my homework, its the end of the day. as long as my mood stays like this for the week, i'm all good. but my decision...now i'm actually leaning toward doing only ONE semester of guard...but...i still dunno. argh! need to make my decision soon...late guys

/the tyPInG wasn't as bad as last time. So much progress in less than a month!

A Cringeworthy Walk Down Memory Lane

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

hey HEY first pOst! damn it kinda tOOk me a while tO get all Of this tOgether. there's the practices, then the reviewing fOr apec (24'7 fOr realz!), hOmewOrk, american idOl Of cOurse, phOne, and just wanting tO take a nap fOr Once! ha well at least i gOt this thing dOne - yeah. u dOn't understand hOw relieved i'll be Once this week is Over. i still gOtta make up a vOcab test in apec frOM friday and a pOlar graph quiz. and Our last guard shOw On sunday! it's at cOx if any Of yOu wanna gO, and but u knOw u can prObably pass it up unless u really wanna spend $15 that is. then nO mOre rEHEARSALS! i'll actually have time fOr a l.i.f.e. O mAN i'm excited. i think i'll start wOrking On my scrapbOOk fOr guard this year next week tOO. damn if Only u can see my james lOgan pix...haha

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...And that was my first Xanga post. And no, I'm not posting links to it either.

Rawfiki Bonus:

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

yo yo yo...waddup yall...wells the past weeks been pretty tight....yup yup ..yeah know...just turned 16 on the the 13th yall...yeah practice was tight that day wasnt too hard...yeah then later that day i went out with oliver and roy and met up with erwin, krystle , and raffy at tapioca heaven..........haha good times good times...."LISTEN LISTEN"..haha yeah... i didnt know they give free boba to you hmmm....yeah then the next day the 14th i had a bbq...it was tiight how a lot of my friends went...and yes my lovely girlfriend Kristine...hey babe i love you.....yeah the bbq was tight..you know breaked a lil chilled a lil but it was fun the last ppl left around 11 .......damn i had a lot to clean up and shit....i feel like having another bbq ...hahaha sike maybe some other year......lets see then on friday i went to a bonfire with oliver and the youth group and met up with OLMC ...yeah i got to see kristine...yup we had a great time...we chilled on the beach and watched the sunset...it was really really nice...then on the weekend i went to the mall with lu ray mark jordan and oliver...bought some new kicks and yeah we saw bad boys 2 ..yall have to check that movie out its tiight...uhm as for the past few days its just been the same ...bboying on monday..practice on tues. and wed. ...well right now im at olivers house and everone is playing street vol.2 im out peace

PEACE.....LOVE.......AND SOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUL!! i love you!!!

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If you haven't noticed already, I've updated my blog roll so check it out. Trying to revive this whole blog thing is easier when I have fellow bloggers to draw inspiration from.

LOL Insanity Wolf

But who knows, I still might make one someday.

#freekanye

I can only hope & pray that one day Not So Small Talk will achieve levels of brilliance & literary prowess parallel to those of Mr. West's blog.

The CAPS LOCK, the blatant disregard for proper punctuation, the "LOL!!" finale, I could go on.

Okay, so I didn't have a real reason to post this except I had nothing to do at work today, so it was just me & my Ipod for a while. Truth is I forgot how great "The College Dropout" is; I have such a love-hate relationship with 'Ye. I just hope he brings as many lulz & WTF moments in 2010 as last year.

I'm going to end this post with one of my favorite Kanye quotes: "WHY WON'T YOU LET ME BE GREAT!!!"

Worth a try

I have no idea what the end product of this post is going to be like. Erwin had pointed out how lackluster the efforts of our little blogging community have been lately (the peeps on the right side of my page if you didn't know already), so I thought I might as well wing it and post something. You could say most of my favorite posts have been class-lecture or douche-encounter inspired, but obviously I can't rely on that for inspiration no mo'. I feel like I rag on religion too much as well, and although I have plenty more to say, I'd like to still believe there's a little place in heaven for me someday O:-)

I prefer to flesh out my posts if possible, so I'll usually only blog about something after it's had time to simmer in my brain and I have enough shit to say. I like my posts meaty. But with the combination of being addicted to Twitter and being as impatient as I am, I tend to just blurt out the thoughts in my head as they come now.

There's no stupid comment by some ignoramus in class I can build a post off of anymore. I see the same people everyday at work and for the most part they are all really nice - I'm not even exaggerating. So what now? I mean jeez I'm only turning 23 soon, I don't want to think life starts to get less interesting and shit starts to get really real from this point. The next closest milestones won't be happening anytime soon, as long as life goes according to plan:

-Moving out: Maybe in the next year? Or two? I like not having to pay for much while living with my 'rents but this could definitely happen in the near future.

-Marriage: Meh, I'm not really in a hurry. Some people say not much will change, so why not? I say not much will change, so why in a rush?

-Kids: I'd like to remain kid-less for a while after getting married. I actually questioned myself at times if I really wanted kids at all. I think I was just scared at what kind of mother I would turn out to be, but then I snapped out of it. I mean how cool with it be to have a mom with such infinite wisdom? (I keed, you never know how well sarcasm comes across on teh interwebs).

But what of the meantime?

Til the next post...whenever that is...

No air-uh air-uh

I swear this week is the slowest ever at work and I must have heard that song about 7 times, no joke. That and "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis ,which I can't stand anymore and never really liked in the first place. At least with "No Air" I can listen to the sweetness of my boy Chris Brown. I've said some funny things about CB (my roommates think so at least) but I don't feel like disclosing them right now to save myself the embarrassment.

Since the last time I blogged I really have nothing to talk about. No new discoveries, life-changing epiphanies, just blah. Maybe if I had some actual drama in my life I could tell cool stories about things like how my best friend stabbed me in the back, or how I went out of my way just to spite an ex, exciting stuff like that.

I think a part of it is also how I refrain from going in depth about specific issues i.e. some relationship stuff or sex because I don't have the luxury of anonymity in these cases. I tend to talk about that stuff in general because if I say something like "Don't you fcking hate it when your boyfriend _______", everyone would just think "Damn Raf what did you do" haha. Who knows, maybe I do mean it, maybe I don't, but I just avoid that situation in general cuz people be too assuming nowadays. Sometimes it's hard to discern what people are really trying to say when it's on paper, nawmean.

Anyways, one thing I do look forward to is Culture Clash at House of Blues tomorrow, it feels like it's been forever since I've gone to an event like this or anything remotely close to the club scene. I know a lot of SD people that I haven't seen in a while are going, so it'll be good to see some familiar faces up here. Also, I'll probably have more to talk about after making some observations of club rats & manwhores in their natural setting tomorrow, so that means more posts along the lines of "'Bout to roll up in this club" or the Ladies Night part of "What a Week" .

Exciting stuff coming up hopefully, time to study...